Feelings from deep insinde me.

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I'm Here, My Home, my sweet home, questions in my mind.
How to think, how to feel, I don't know, is this real.
I woke up once, found a big man, has lots and lots, but don't know what he can .
It's miserable, so terrible; there isn't any kind of a plan.
Decided to leave, decided to escape, leaving things on my back.
but all of that, left obstacles on my track.
It feels pain, it feels sad, maybe I don't know what I had
I'm still here, fighting against my fear.
Don't know where to go,

Where to run,
Where to escape from this damn thing.
Don't know what's good, bad, I'm gonna drive my self mad
I'll leave, but I'll be back, wait for me my wack

It's time ... it's a passing time u don’t know why it's passing around you, all you can do is still at your place, maybe consider going there or then. But it's almost nothing at all. Today I heard about a book named "Eat, Pray, Love" .I think that I'm in a bad need of a book of that kind. I'm in a not good status. Really, I don't feel well. It's 13/4 12.00 am. Now I can cry lots and lots but i don't. Why? Because I don't know the reason. I think I'm gonna follow the way that the author of the mentioned book followed in writing her book. This way is to talk to Ur self. And let Ur self reply you. Without any additions. I can't continue any thing, usually i fail in the way. I really want to hug my self and tell it" don't be sad, i feel you. I feel you more than anybody else. I don't wanna any body to hurt you or even to touch ur feelings. Aaaaaaaaaah , ya rabbi ana msh 3aref a3ml eh . ana bgd t3ebt . leeh kedah . ana 3amalt eh . 7aram elle ba2oolo bass da 7aram . :( msh 3aeref a2ool eh . fekrak tyeb eh elle mday2ak ?? )

2ool enta .. :

7areem ?

Floos ?

Pleasure ?

Pressure ?

Kabt ?

Nfoor mn zmailak ?

7ases ennak makrooh ?

7ases ennak tyeb w kwes w 2albak abyad awii ldaraget en el nas msta3'ella da 3'alat.

7ases enno makansh nefsak abdan yeegi el youm elle ye7sal feeh keda w t7ess bkeda?  ( elle foo2 )

7ases ennak msh 3aref t3ml 7aga ?

7'alaaaas

Ana t3ebt...

I want to look deeper in myself

Just wanna try it, maybe it works

Suicide maybe works too but it's 7aram, and it also may not work.. then there will be no way to try something else...

Ok, I g2g... we may continue

I'll miss you

Byeee.

I'm back , after I wrote byee 1 min. :D

Really , mom came in , mom don't understand me, bass heya tayeba , awi , w bt7ebbak fas7', w bgd iza laqadar allah ya3ni hattmna el ayam di trga3 tani , enta lessa el 7amdullah , msh 3awez aktb. Ok

Fine

Byeee bba2a :D .

22/4/2007

aho ana delwa2te 2a3ed, waraya mozakra , 7ases bsh3oor 3'areeb , msh 3aref a3ml eeh , 3awez a3mel 7aga w msh 3aref heya eeh, humm, w ba3deen , w a7'retha , hehe , ma3rafsh :D. adeeeeeena 2a3deeeeeeen.